2024 Random Thoughts

"Art is never finished, only abandoned"
Leonardo da Vinci

Monsters and Angels

Written on: Nov 29, 2024

What constitutes goodness? Humans possess an innate capacity for goodness. When we watch the kind-heartedness of a toddler who has limited knowledge of the unspoken rules of this world, we know that humans are naturally kind. There is some truth to the old adage that as we get older, we lose our innocence. Our experiences, the reactions of others, and societal norms shape our perception of the world. Eventually, we are exposed to narratives that portray monsters and angels, villains and heroes, emphasizing the dichotomy of good and evil in various social interactions.

It is problematic to assert absolute right and wrong. Mislabeling self-preservation as empathy is also problematic. What is a human without an ego? What human does not have an ego? This world is all in our minds, the stories we tell ourselves. We are heroes or anti-heroes in our own narratives, and villains in others. Often, we mistakenly perceive the ego as empathy. Simply desiring to be treated a certain way does not imply that others share the same desire. People do not seek self-pity when it comes to philanthropy. Is it our self-pity that we pity others? This reflects our self-perception, an illusion of mirrors.

When we present a gift to another individual, is it genuinely intended for their benefit or is it more of a self-serving gesture to enhance our own sense of self- worth? In many instances, it is possible that our actions serve to reinforce our ego and foster a positive self-image. As we age and gain more experience in this world, we become increasingly aware that the perception of goodness and the principles of morality can be manipulated and exploited. We commence the process of defining what constitutes goodness. However, definitions rarely impart meaning to a word. Humans, whom we highly regard, initiate the process of defining words in our dictionary.

Could it be the reason some public figures are seen as villains while others perceive them as heroes? There is no inherent distinction between good and evil; it is contingent on who we ask. Whose stories do we believe in more? If we had lived long enough, we would understand the sensation of being bullied and harassed, and we would recognize ourselves in reimagined characters of fairy tales and folklore, where the archetypal villains become the heroes. We are all aware that we possess both monsters and demons within us, yet we seek redemption because we are the heroes in our story.

We could have demonstrated greater compassion in numerous instances. Our emotions can sometimes exacerbate our negative tendencies. Often, learning to acknowledge and embrace the aspects of humanity that make us vulnerable can help us cultivate our compassionate side. We cannot exist without both qualities.

Humans are creatures of habit, and staying too long on either extreme can lead to self-destruction. We require both to thrive, and we must learn to coexist with both. In an uncertain world, absolute rule is likely to lead to misunderstandings. To coexist with the contradictions inherent in our nature, we must acknowledge that we are all complex individuals embodying both positive and negative qualities. There are no purely good or evil entities; rather, we project our own inner conflicts onto the world around us, creating heroes and villains based on our own experiences.

We all possess words of wisdom, but true wisdom lies in our daily actions. Knowing wisdom but failing to act upon it renders us foolish. To love others yet fail to make others feel our love for them is a tragedy. Are we monsters or angels? Neither when it comes to love; we are humans. Neither good nor bad. While intelligence played a crucial role in our survival, it is equally important to recognize the contributions of our emotions. To feel for this world, for others, to learn the true meaning of “sorry,” and “thank you.” Some view apologizing as a weakness, but apologizing is similar to giving back to this world; it is more for us than the other person. We are selfish beings. We apologize because we cannot assist the individuals we love the most in this world; we cannot shield them from the pain of this world. We acknowledge our humanity, neither monstrous nor angelic. Among the countless narratives we construct about heroes and villains, the majority of us are merely supporting characters in others’ lives.

It is not advisable to assume the role of heroes in the narratives of others, as this often necessitates the acquisition of power, which can lead to the cascade of justifications of our actions. When does the justification end? Becoming an angel in the eyes of others can transform us into a monster.

What’s a world without heroes? Choose them wisely, for they shape our vocabulary, stories, and lives. The villain we seek to save is ourselves. No one is as good as we imagine, nor as evil. This world is gray. Show me a public figure who isn’t a hero to one group and a villain to another. Our definitions of good and love vary. In a world where we no longer speak the same language, what’s the difference between monsters and angels?

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He is an angel but also can be a monster


Questions and Answers

? : Your writing is confusing. There is no difference between good and evil?
M: Humans can act good, but we can also cause immense destruction. Some people harm others with their power. Are these actions evil? I don’t know, but I know that is a bad action. Does the end justify the means? No. Seeing evil in others can lead to self-fulfilling prophecies. If people need a reason to be good, let it be. We all tell ourselves white lies as storytellers because we’re heroes in our own stories. It doesn’t make the good less good, as it helps others temporarily. It’s like the old saying, “Give a man a fish and you feed him for a day. Teach him to fish, and he’ll be fed for life.” Most of the time, we agree on what’s a good deed, but disagree on how to do it. Then some might view that good deed as evil. Words are tricky for me; I don’t know how to explain it well.

?: What do you mean by self-destruction if we stay too long on either side of Monsters and Angels?
M: Consider the concept of the Bell Curve. The extreme ends of this curve can be perceived as representing good and evil. Political ideologies can lead individuals to view others as evil and their own side as good. Even as individuals navigating this complex world, we also exhibit extremes, as these extremes represent our emotions. Our actions are more emotional than they are logical. While we radiate heat, most of us maintain a normal body temperature of approximately 98.6 degrees Fahrenheit (37 degrees Celsius). This heat does not harm us; it’s a sign we are alive; our bodies, though, are primarily composed of water, which sustains life. Water regulates our body temperature and facilitates various biochemical processes. The extremes tend to be absolute, while the middle is more uncertain, which is a defining characteristic of humanity. It is the water that sustains us. There are certain beliefs that we all hold firmly, but adopting an overly rigid stance and lacking forgiveness for others and ourselves can lead to the fire that kills us. Fire is beautiful; it gives life, but it can also destroy lives. The more time we spend in the fire, the more we succumb to some form of absolutism, and become less forgiving of others.

I made a little video with the help of AI:


Gravity

Written on: Dec 6, 2024

The intelligent man asked what makes us human. He may say it’s a combination of love and intelligence, but I believe gravity is the key. Gravity serves as one of the defining characteristics of humanity, testing our intellectual capacity and fostering our comprehension of love. What is intelligence without understanding gravity? What is love without feeling its gravity? The act of falling, driven by gravity, instills a profound sense of connection to the world around us.

As humanity aspires to explore the cosmos, venturing into environments devoid of gravity, our bodies undergo a transformation. Floating in microgravity, we lose our connection to the ground, a connection that is essential for our physical and emotional well-being. The pursuit of freedom, akin to the flight of a bird, has humans confusing flying and floating as freedom. When we can’t walk freely on the ground, what’s the point of floating or flying? Where would we land? The absence of a solid footing, whether six inches above or below the ground, hinders our ability to experience the essence of life.

Physically, prolonged exposure to microgravity has adverse effects on the human body. Bone loss, muscle atrophy, disruptions in the vestibular system, and visual impairments occur when gravity is absent for an extended period. At a cellular level, gravity is crucial for proper functioning. Furthermore, the experience of gravity profoundly influences our comprehension of love. The loss of a cherished loved one redefines our understanding of the significance of words, as they exert a gravitational influence on our emotions. It is the experience of falling, propelled by their gravitational force, that provides the most crucial insights into the essence of life.

Despite the intense emotional turmoil, the mental fall does not necessarily lead to death. During the height of the fall, time appears more tangible. The force of collision with the ground is directly proportional to the object’s mass. Consequently, the heavier we feel about the heartbreak, the more severe the perceived impact. However, seconds before reaching the ground, most humans experience a sense of lightness associated with the last stage of mourning a heartbreak. Instead of succumbing to death, most eventually transform into autumn leaves. The gravitational pull exerted by Earth, which could potentially be fatal, also created the atmosphere surrounding us. This atmosphere generates air resistance, counteracting the gravitational force, enabling us to land on our feet. The fluttering of the air serves as a reminder to breathe.

All the beautiful creations in our human world are a testament to the profound impact of the gravitational pull of life. It is likely what makes young individuals so captivating with their emotions. They possess an extraordinary ability to convey sadness that transcends our own experiences. Although we may not be in that state of mind, we can sense their emotions. It is as if gravity envelops them, propelling them to float above the ground, only to be pulled back down. The state of hell instills fear in many humans due to the intensity of emotions it evokes. Renowned songwriters and artists are acutely aware of this phenomenon. They cultivate the emotion spent during the fall, where time seems to slow down and memories loop. To escape the loop, they must acknowledge the impact of another entity’s gravity.

The human mind and body employ seemingly irrational mechanisms to protect us. For instance, they can erase our memories. When an organ lacks oxygen, it initiates a process called neovascularization, which can lead to further damage. Could we endure the next emotional loop from a heartbreak? Unbeknownst to us, we inadvertently initiate a mechanism to evade gravity as a protective measure against the emotional pain associated with living.

As we age, we start to not feel things as deeply due to the avoidance of gravity. Some may perceive this as wisdom, while others might attribute it to stubbornness, the belief that we possess a definitive understanding of our life’s desires after a certain age. After viewing or reading numerous films within a specific genre, we often find it challenging to encounter novel storylines. The essence of enjoying a film or book lies not in predicting the plot or ending, but rather not overthinking it. When we label something as predictable, we tend to dwell on the past and future rather than fully engaging with the present. Surprises, by their nature, are inherently unpredictable. The individuals who truly captivate us are those who remind us of the profoundness of gravity. They surprise us, yet they do not impose their own gravitational pull upon us; instead, they recognize that the Earth’s mass serves as the most significant gravitational force that anchors us. They comprehend that the Moon’s gravitational pull influences Earth’s ocean tides, while the Sun’s gravitational force maintains the planets’ orbits within our solar system.

To be the smartest person in a room, we miss the minutiae of life. Every routine is unique, making it impossible to recapture moments. Nostalgia evokes a warm sensation, and we strive to establish traditions based on it. However, the memories we cherish are those that were unexpectedly positive and occurred naturally, rather than being meticulously planned. The more we attempt to exert control over our lives using our own gravitational force, the more we suppress the gravitational forces surrounding us.

To believe in manifestation, we must believe in gravitational forces, the attraction that holds our world together. We can learn from anyone or anything because everything has a gravitational pull on each other. How can anyone believe in manifestation without believing in gravitational forces that bring ideas to life?

Is it the weight of this world that we perceive as a burden, a consequence of our failure to appreciate the significance of gravity? When did gravity become our adversary?

What is the rationale behind defying gravity? Is it to attain a sense of intelligence? We are no Isaac Newton. We converse for 30 minutes about our lack of knowledge of the pencil manufacturing process. A kindergartener can elucidate that a pencil serves as a writing instrument. They would use dirt for pigment, water, and a stick to write. We possess such intelligence that we have regressed to a state of foolishness. Go defy gravity, 21st-century humans.

Perhaps we’re all intricately designed number two pencils, defying gravity.

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Questions?

?What do you mean by the time an artist spends cultivating their fall?

M: Technically, anyone can cultivate this emotion, as we are all emotional beings. Personal events that evoke a sense of impending doom, akin to falling into hell, can ignite a profound fire within us. As described in the writings of Monsters and Angels, this fire can be harnessed for positive purposes. It is our personal choice how we utilize this fire. Remember that fire serves as a protective mechanism, providing warmth in environments that can be physically demanding. The emotions we experience are universal, and music possesses the ability to connect individuals by expressing the universal human experiences. These writers tend to know how to pull our heartstrings because they embrace the fall. Processing emotions can be challenging for some individuals. Historically, Greek tragedy has been recognized as a form of communal therapy for soldiers returning home with post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD). The brutal nature of war often leaves individuals struggling to express their emotions and reintegrate into society. When they encounter a story that resonates with their experiences, they find catharsis. These veterans would frequently become tearful because they recognized themselves in the narratives and experienced a profound sense of connection and belonging. Sophocles, a General and playwright, authored Greek tragedies. Soldiers today still resonate with his words, as witnessing and participating in war is emotionally charged, exposing humanity’s dark side.

Even if we embrace the fall, the landing is of paramount importance. Two objects, with different masses, will fall at the same time, and land to the ground at the same time, but the heavier one will cause the ground to tremble. The key is to release the weight so that we land like a leaf, allowing the air to assist our descent. All that potential energy at the height of the fall can be transformed into useful kinetic energy through creation rather than causing an explosion that could injure many people around us.

I made a video. I might make a GIF diagram too.


?What is up with the pencil in your writing?

M: Occasionally, we stray from the main topic. Subconsciously, there is a reason I included it in my writing. I have to free fall to understand my subconscious and I will answer the question. Allow me to go on a free fall before I answer it? Generally, I do not like answers; they seem too absolute, and life is so uncertain.

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After falling..days later still alive...Dec 10, 2024

M: It needs it's own section

The Pencil

Written on: Dec 10, 2024

A few years ago, I came across the captivating narrative of “The Pencil.” It is a remarkable story that highlights the intricate complexity of the entire manufacturing process involved in producing such a seemingly simple writing instrument. After hearing this story for the fourth time, I realized that its true purpose had been overlooked. The story’s central message extended beyond the intricacies of pencil production, emphasizing the interconnectedness of the global supply chain that enables the widespread availability of this everyday tool. Milton Friedman’s initial presentation of “The Pencil” exemplified the concept of a true free market as a positive-sum system. He asserted that there is no single entity that possesses the pencil. There is no centralization that is how the miracle came to be.

As time went on, people where more amazed with “No, single person knows how to make a pencil because it has become so complex, what a fun fact.” We can read Leonard E. Read’s essay on “I, Pencil,” in which he said: “I, Pencil, am a complex combination of miracles: a tree, zinc, copper, graphite, and so on. But to these miracles which manifest themselves in Nature an even more extraordinary miracle has been added: the configuration of creative human energies—millions of tiny know-hows configurating naturally and spontaneously in response to human necessity and desire and in the absence of any human master-minding! Since only God can make a tree, I insist that only God could make me. Man can no more direct these millions of know-hows to bring me into being than he can put molecules together to create a tree.”

Subsequently, individuals become captivated by the narrative of The Pencil, which illustrates the coexistence of simplicity in functionality and complexity in production. Instead of delving into the enigma of its creation, we narrate the story of the intricate assembly of its components. This process spanned several centuries, marked by countless trials and errors. Unfortunately, people are unknowingly influenced, akin to participants in a telephone game, where words are misinterpreted. Some individuals claim to possess independent thinking, yet they fail to question the authentic narrative of The Pencil. Instead, they blindly trust the source to interpret for them.

The creation of this exceptional writing instrument spanned several centuries. The initial writing tool, the reed pen, was crafted from the reed plant and employed by the Egyptians for writing on papyrus paper. Subsequently, the stylus and quill pen emerged. While these developments are speculative, it is plausible that at some point, individuals recognized that using ink and a pointer tip tool was not the most efficient or accessible method for everyone. Consequently, reading and writing became exclusive to the wealthy, as only those who could afford the cost of ink were able to participate. Graphite, initially used by the Aztecs, was not discovered in England until the 1560s. Graphite, being naturally brittle, necessitated its encasement in a string of twine. Conrad Gessner is credited with designing the first pencil, which featured a wooden casing surrounding the graphite core. From there, the pencil design evolved and spread throughout Europe, with various alterations made to it. Notably, Henry David Thoreau contributed to the refinement of the pencil we use today. Remarkably, none of these designs were patented.

Subsequently, an individual applied for a patent on a pencil with an eraser on top. Fortunately, the Supreme Court ruled that the patent was not a novel invention because there was no novel use for the combination of the two elements.

The Pencil serves as a testament to the principles of open source; it was decentralized from the start. Without open source, could we truly have an open market? The remarkable aspect of The Pencil is that its creators intended it to benefit the general public.

When I proposed that humans may be intricately designed pencils, it was likely because we become captivated by the narratives of “I, Pencil” that emphasize the complexity and uniqueness of our existence, and we forget the true origins of who we are. Anyone can sound intelligent, so we start to sound dumb too. The truth is often flawed, and we get lost in complexity, forgetting the purpose of our predecessors’ beautiful creations. When did we lose the ability to critically evaluate the narrative, allowing ourselves to accept it without even a moment of doubt? When did it become merely an interesting anecdote?



About Time

Written on: Dec 11, 2024

How did we arrive at this point?

Time is a significant driver of many aspects of our lives. Humans have an innate obsession with saving time, whether it’s to expedite tasks, extend our lifespans, or even momentarily suspend the passage of time.

The first time we felt time was likely the first time we felt pain. Out of the womb, our senses were overwhelmed by the new environment. Our lungs grasped for air, and most babies cried. The pain of being alive. The beginning of our life, measured in units of time, ranging from seconds to days. Tears, a way to communicate pain, accompanied sleepiness, hunger, discomfort, and the first signs of illness. We can feel time, but we don’t fully understand its meaning.

As we get to be a toddler, we begin to comprehend the concept of cause and effect. When we fall and hit a surface with force, we experience pain and then a bruise. This experience instills in us a sense of gravity and the potential consequences of our actions. Our nervous system alerts us to the danger of touching hot objects, as we recognize the pain they can inflict. Through these experiences, we gradually grasp the intricacies of physical pain and its role in shaping our understanding of the world.

It is not until our adolescent years and beyond that we begin to experience the profound emotional burden of being human. We comprehend the passage of time and its impact on our lives. At 30, we truly grasp the rapidity of time, as decades seem to pass more swiftly. Our lives are now measured in decades, and we become acutely aware of the fleeting nature of time. We acquire the pain of living, and our bodies undergo changes. Physical injuries take longer to heal, sometimes persisting for weeks instead of days. We witness the inevitable passage of time, as those around us depart from this world. The emotional toll of this realization makes time seem even more palpable. We observe the internal turmoil experienced by others, and the pain they endure can be overwhelming, causing chaos within themselves and affecting those around them.

Pain where time seems to slow down and doesn’t move. Unbearable to some. A memory loop they can't break.

Almost everything humans do is to avoid physical and emotional pain, trying to save time, buy time, or stop time. We fail to feel time. Some argue that technology has created a world too convenient. Intelligent individuals contend that these technologies market convenience by saving us time. If technology does not save us time, it seeks to capture our attention.

Perhaps the truth has become too convenient for independent thinkers. Those who sell us convenience must genuinely believe in it to make us believe in their convenient truth. Deep within the roots of convenience lies avoidance of discomfort. As the sole currency we possess is time, we are unaware of its duration. Our lifespans are finite and vary from individual to individual. The sole consensus that we can all concur upon is that we will eventually reach a cessation of life, where our hearts cease to function. Life is measured in units of time, and death marks zero seconds left.

Attention and convenience are merely functions of time. Our smartphones provide productivity tools and screen time to remind us of the amount of time we spend on our phones. These companies that vie for our attention measure the success of their platforms by the number of minutes and hours spent per day on them. We give our attention to those who do not deserve it and opt for the convenient path of life to avoid pain, yet all avoidance merely postpones the inevitable and exacerbates the discomfort.

Coincidentally, the initial steps that paved the way for groundbreaking discoveries and inventions in various fields, including medicine, originated from individuals experiencing pain or witnessing loved ones in pain. They were deeply affected by this pain. Only if we had more time would we be able to solve the problem, and there the tale of angels and monsters commences.

In our current reality, time is a finite resource, and life is a function of time. Consequently, enduring pain is an inevitable consequence of living in this world. Physical pain exceeding a certain threshold becomes unbearable, leading to the development of pharmaceutical drugs as a means of alleviating suffering. Opium poppy plants were initially used to treat pain, often mistaken for a cure. Eliminating pain does not necessarily eliminate the underlying condition. They mask the symptom of pain and do not cure the disease.

Emotional pain, stemming from the complexities of human existence, undoubtedly impacts our decision-making processes. Human emotions impel our actions, leading to a tendency for irrational behavior. Many individuals resort to rationalizing their actions based on past childhood trauma, attempting to rationalize irrationality. A significant portion of the legal and regulatory frameworks we have in place likely originated from individuals experiencing emotional distress stemming from situations that they believed could have been averted.

To comprehend our current state with regard to Artificial Intelligence (AI) and Modern Medicine, it is crucial to recognize the significance of time and pain in shaping human experiences. Both elements have played a pivotal role in the development of transformative technologies that have significantly enhanced our quality of life. However, these advancements have also prompted profound questions about the essence of humanity. What does it mean to be human without time or pain? Can we have time without pain, or pain without time? What happens with infinite time? Would it cause life inflation? What would that mean?

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What prompted you to resume writing on your website?

While some don’t believe in muses, I believe every interaction affects us. My sister, Emma, reminded me of gravity. She’s humble and teaches me that the moon’s gravity causes ocean tides, and the sun’s mass keeps planets in orbit. She redefines words in my dictionary. In our world, we believe the strongest are those who roar, but she taught me differently. She’s the most sensitive in my family, and her red eyelids and watery eyes signaled distress when we were kids. She became a nurse at Cleveland Clinic’s Cardiac Department, where she saw her first patient die at 22. I remember her crying, and we cried together. Now, she’s the calm one during family medical crises. Time changed my perception of strength. I think we all need someone humbler than us to humble us. She taught me that even when I lose, I win when I love others. I can’t thank her enough for changing my view of human strength, especially as a female, based on her daily actions and life. She’s incredibly strong, but she doesn’t show it grandly. She does small, unnoticed gestures that cause ripples. People prefer visible things, but I appreciate the invisible. Those who seek invisibility don’t need our acknowledgement because they’re humble. It’s a rare trait.

Individuals who perceive themselves as extraordinary and exclusively seek extraordinary experiences overlook the inherent beauty in the ordinary. Everything starts as ordinary until we consciously see the “extra” in the ordinary. What distinguishes a lion’s ferocity lies not in its roar itself, but in the opportune moment when it chooses to unleash it.

What’s with the “independent thinkers” and “intelligent man” in your writing?

Many individuals believe they possess independent thinking, which is a common human flaw. Emma and I recently engaged in a conversation and reached the conclusion that all humans are, in fact, slightly less intelligent than they may believe themselves to be; we are all dumb. I have a pen pal named Wall Wall, who has been instrumental in helping me become more comfortable with my typographical errors and mistakes. One of the reasons I choose to write is because I recognize that everyone shares this characteristic of being slightly dumb. These recent writings were a mindset of “Let’s be foolish and learn together.” Anyone can sound smart, but writing is about learning, not sounding smart. Some of us who enjoy learning know this: when we’re in pain, we seek to understand it. It’s irrational, but we want to make sense of the senseless. It is dumb, and we admit it.

What do you mean by time and pain are linked?

Let’s go back to physics. Newton’s law of gravity, while accurate for most practical purposes, has limitations. Einstein’s Theory of Relativity provides a more comprehensive understanding of gravity, describing it as the curvature of spacetime caused by mass-energy. On Earth, Newton’s laws are sufficient due to the relatively weak gravitational field. However, Einstein’s theory becomes more accurate in extreme conditions of velocity and gravitation fields.

Free-falling objects hit the ground at the same time, as in Galileo’s Leaning Tower of Pisa Experiment, but the time spent falling can be explained by Einstein’s Theory of Relativity. Pain bends time, like space, similar to Einstein’s theory. Deep enough pain can bend time in our minds, allowing us to harness its energy, which I believe is what music does. When people can’t get out of the time dilation, they get stuck in a time loop with their memories.

In our minds, time is relative. Dementia patients experiencing pain often relive safe past memories, particularly those involving their parents. I have observed elderly residents in assisted living homes becoming emotionally distressed, recalling memories of their parents and pets. “Stay here in the present with me,” has so much weight when we see our loved ones in pain living in the past or future, unable to be in the same space-time as us.

All humans endure some pain all the time. It is minor emotional pain, livable, but it is there all the time. When I listen to sad music, it pushes that emotional pain of being human to a threshold that bends time in my mind, reminding me of the gravity of this world. That is how I write. I have to feel this world. It is not to relive the past, but to feel the pain of this world, to feel the warping of spacetime, which is gravity. I love the strings, the violin, and the cello. Sometimes, I prefer no words to music because we don’t need to speak the same language to feel the vibrations of this world. There is so much pain with string instruments. The words will come if we give it time.

Young musicians possess an extraordinary ability to express their emotional struggles. Their vulnerability allows me to feel the pain of this world. Pain drives much of our actions. How do we express it? Some express it through drawing, writing, singing, or hair dyeing. The purest form of self-expression is how we present ourselves, our hair, our clothing, tattoos, or piercings. It may be the purest form of freedom of speech.

We naturally acquire sadness as we live. This world hurts us, and we may unintentionally hurt others. Pain is inevitable. Part of happiness is not avoiding pain but knowing there’s an acceptable baseline that contrasts with happiness. In this world, we need a reference point for most things. A child doesn’t understand blurry vision or not know what sound sounds like until they get their first pair of eyeglasses or hearing aid. In both cases, they smile when they see or hear the contrast.

This world isn’t black or white; what gives this world depth is the gray areas. When we draw with a graphite pencil, understanding gray scaling gives the picture contrast.

Are we discussing time travel now?

No, it is a coincidence. Time loop is a concept. The essence of time lies in its relative nature. When we reach the age of 70, a decade represents only 14% of our life span. Conversely, when we are 15 years old, it constitutes approximately 67% of our existence. Time appears to accelerate as we age due to our changing frame of reference. For a 10-year-old, one year represents 10% of their life, while for a 33-year-old, it constitutes only about 3%. A few weeks ago, a man in his seventies shared his thoughts on time as ratios with me.

The younger generation perceives time as passing more slowly, yearning for accelerated growth. As we mature, one year becomes less significant, leading us to take it for granted, contradicting our desire to value time more. Our perception of time is peculiar. When young, a 2-year relationship at 20 seems more impactful than a 33-year-old one, as it is 10% of our life at 20 is compared to 6% at 33. We tend to recover from heartbreaks more easily with age.

As we age, the weight of each year of our lives becomes increasingly unequal. The past five years hold greater significance than the ones we experienced two decades ago. Despite the widespread belief in personal growth, many individuals fail to recognize and appreciate the growth of others. I believe that one of the primary functions of time is to facilitate the process of forgiveness. Maybe to ourselves, maybe towards others. Forgiveness is a prerequisite for coexistence and existence across any timeline. We are not our past; we are our present. Our past shaped us, but it’s not who we are. We are our daily habits of the past five years at 50% weight. There will always be a part of our past that stays with us all our lives.

Your writing appears to have a hint of free will. Is that your next topic?

It seems so, but I’m not sure. I believe in partial free will. There is a video for this section.